Being a SAHM

Never once did I think being a SAHM was going to be easy but never did I think it was going to be so hard. My kids are crazy!! Mikey is going through this stage where he thinks he's the boss and can do whatever he damn well pleases. Breyana just does whatever he does so she thinks it's ok.

My house is a mess and I just don't have the energy to clean it. I once heard every SAHM should still get dress everyday, that's suppose to boost your energy. What energy?? I know Mike is upset the house is a mess and he thinks I'm just lazy and I'm not lazy. Mike just can't understand that unlike him I never get a little break. He's at work and he gets to actually have an adult conversation without having to tell a kid to stop yelling, running, or jumping. Am I a bad mom for wanting a little bit of me time?? If the answer is no why do I feel so bad for wanting it?? I feel like all day everyday i have to be super mom and when I slip Mike is there to let me know. Is there a such thing as super dad??

I love my kids more than life itself and I know I'm a damn good mom to my kids! I wish I could keep up with my house because like Mike I hate a dirty house also. I wish I could leave the kids with a sitter or grandparent for one day every week and just come home and clean.
I guess everyone expects a SAHM to have her house clean but not this one.

On the upside I love being at home with my kids I love catching every milestone and just spending time with them. My mom never stayed at home with us but I always wish she had. I know my kids enjoy the time they share with me and I love it that they are so close to me. I love for my kids to depend on me because I know one day the won't need me anymore. I love the fact that I know every little thing about them. I know what they like and what they hate. I know every bruise, scratch or bump. I love being a SAHM but sometimes I just need to be reminded why I love it so much. Is that such a bad thing? I just feel under appreciated and taken for granted and I know that will never change but being able to vent about it makes me feel so much better!! I would not change my job for anything in this world because I will always be Mikey and Breyana's mommy first!!