My Fairy Tale

I'm here and ready to blog...

2009-02-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

Sorry I have been MIA for a while, I really miss blogging. So now I am back and ready to blog. It has been so crazy and hectic around here, with me working for a while and keeping up with my kids. I hope everyone is doing well and I look forward to catching up on all of ya'lls blogs!

A little update...

2009-02-10T15:19:00.000-08:00

I know I have been being a very bad blogger but I have been so busy. One of the teachers at the school is ill and in the hospital, all they know is that it has something to do with her liver. While she is out I am taking her pre-k class of 8. So far everything is going well we are all getting use to each other. Of course her way of teaching is not mine so we are working on a middle ground. Please keep her in her prayers she is a mother to 3 children that need her. I will try to get back here soon! Hope everyone has a Happy Valentines!!!

We share....

2009-01-24T18:31:00.000-08:00

We share a special love.... I feel like no one could love him the way I do and no one could love me the way he does.

We share Mikey.... Our first born our beautiful baby boy. He is like no other he is smart, funny, caring, and loving.

We share Breyana.... Our beautiful baby girl. She is special she is the only girl on both sides. She is smart, funny, emotional, and tough.

We share an unexplainable love.... that would be the love we share for Mikey & Bre.

We share the beginning.... did not have much but we had each other.

We share kisses....Sometimes long and sometimes quick but equally meaningful.

We share our family.... we both gained this the day we got married.

We share "those glances".... the ones that say you just read my mind.

We share the good times.... and enjoy every minute of them.

We share the bad times.... and learn from every second of them.

We share pain.... we always get up and move on.

We share memories.... we often visit these and hold them close to our hearts.

We share Today.... and welcome it with open arms.

We share Tomorrow.... looking forward to what it brings.

We share forever.... hand in hand and heart in heart.

We share each other.... with the thought of knowing we can carry each other through anything.

Dad you have a ven....

2009-01-12T06:51:00.000-08:00

This is what Bre told Mike yesterday while he was working out. He was on the floor doing crunches and she was rubbing his rib calling it a ven. Of course this is one of those things only mom would figure out and understand. You see Mikey and Bre love the movie Shark Boy and Lava Girl. Bre thought her dad grew a fin but she calls it a ven. It was cute because she was really convinced that her dad had a "ven". After we told her it was a rib she looked at us like we had no idea what we were talking about. I love their curiosity at this age.

It starts today....

2009-01-08T12:49:00.000-08:00

So my family decided to start a weight loss competition, we are all chipping in $25. We went to my parents house to get weighed in and boy was that just sad. I know I have whined about this before but I can't believe I have let myself go so bad. So I am determined to win this but I think all of us except Mike are. Mike is so layed back he's just like whatever. lol

So we have 60 days to see who can lose the most weight, I need all the prayers I can get. I am starting at 159 and want to get down to 135 eventually. I know I can't do that in two months but I hope by summer I can.

I plan on eating better and exercising, I know I can do this and will try my hardest and give my best.

Any tips or advice is appreciated!

Lemonade Award

2009-01-03T20:04:00.000-08:00

I am so honored Jolene from The little things in Life has nominated me for a lemonade Award. Here is the run down on it:

The purpose of this award is to give it to someone who shows gratitude or a good attitude ("if life hands you lemons, make lemonade") within their life or blog.

The rules of this award for recipients:
1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs which show great Attitude and/or Gratitude.
3. Be sure to link to your nominees within your post.
4. Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

I would like to nominate:

Kim over at Bringing up three

Anji over at I Wasn't Born a Soccer Mom

Amy over at Never A Dull
Moment

Lauren over at Just call me Mommy

Jodi over at Jodifur

Dena over at The Life I know

I would have love to nominate Yaya over at Yaya Stuff but Jolene has nominated her already!

I know that is not 10 (sorry).

Thanks again Jolene!

Friday Fotos!

2009-01-02T10:53:00.000-08:00

I have so much to do around the house today but I wanted to share some Photos from the holidays. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Mikey and his new bike

Breyana opening her gift

My little nephew Danny Boy

Uncle Willy and Mattie

Mikey and Popo

Memaw and Bre

All the boys and Breyana (she is the only girl on both sides)

VERY funny story....

2008-12-30T20:55:00.000-08:00

I can't believe I have not shared this yet. It dates back to Christmas eve night, we are all at my mother in laws opening gifts. I look over at my brother in law (who I will remain nameless due to embarrassment) and he is opening our card. We decided to give him two lottery tickets we thought maybe he'd have some luck. He scratches them and GUESS WHAT?!?! HE WON $10,000 dollars! My other brother in law Rene and my father in law are so happy for him, I mean jumping up in down and yelling happy. I think he is a little bit in shock because he just keeps starring at the lottery ticket. OH BUT WAIT THE FUNNY PART IS... IT WAS A FAKE LOTTERY TICKET!!! Finally after I think Rene and my father in law are going to pass out I tell him to read the back. He look down a little sad and yes I felt a little bad.

Only for a while though because come on, it's funny to make someone think they won $10,000. So there is my funniest moment in 2008.

Are you ready for 2009?!?!

2008-12-29T14:10:00.001-08:00

It's hard to believe another year is wrapping up and soon a new one starts. This year has been one heck of a year for all of us as far as our economy goes. Unfortunately this is one of those things that will follow us into 2009.

As far as my personal life goes 2008 was a pretty good year and I am looking forward to another wonderful year with my family. My kids are healthy,we have a roof over our heads, food to eat and Mike has his job. What more can you ask for???

Of course I will make unrealistic New Years resolutions in hopes that this year I can actually follow through with them. For example maybe this time I can actually shred that baby weight, I have only been carrying it for 3 years.

I really just hope for a better year than this year and if that is possible then WONDERFUL!

Every New Years I get overwhelmed with emotions and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I am so happy and grateful we have all made it another year. Of course I have had my hard times this year but nothing compared to what some have had to overcome. There were many foreclosures and job losses. I hope the new year brings tons of blessings for all who had to go through these struggles.

So here is to a better year!

Merry Christmas

2008-12-23T10:39:00.000-08:00

I know it's going to be hard to update the next couple of days but, I wanted to wish all my blogger friends a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! On Christmas eve we go to my mother in laws and celebrate with all Mike's family. This is always cozy and peaceful. Then on Christmas morning we do Christmas with the kids, which is always WONDERFUL. I love to see their little faces light up when they open that gift that they really really wanted. After this we go to my parents house. This is fun and can be a bit crazy at times. We are excited because my uncle flew in from WI so we get to have him here this Christmas! I am very much looking forward to the family time, I love to spend time with family and feel it's very important for my kids.

So to your family from mine Merry Christmas, and let's not forget the meaning of it all.

Photo Tag!

2008-12-22T14:37:00.000-08:00

So Anji photo tagged me, this sounds like FUN!!! Here is what you have to do:

The object of the picture tag is to:
1) Choose the 4th folder where you store your pictures on your computer
2) Select the 4th picture in the folder
3) Explain the picture
4) Tag 4 people to do the sameNO CHEATING! (cropping, editing, etc!)
This is a picture of my son Mikey and my little nephew Danny Boy. It was taken at my mom and Dad's house on 4th of July. Looking at this picture reminds me of how much fun we all had that day!

So I Tag:
Annalisa
Dena
Mike
Willy

Santa

2008-12-09T08:29:00.001-08:00

I really want my kids to believe in Santa in a way I still do. I know Breyana believes whole hearted but I think Mikey is starting to have a little bit of doubt. Is that possible he is only five, he still has more time before this. He has not told me anything yet, but he has this weird look on his face when we talk about him. You can hear his brain turning trying to wrap around the possibility of it all. Yesterday we went to pay Santa a visit and he went sat on his lap and told him what he wanted. He was a little upset because Santa did not give him a chance to name everything on his list. Breyana was scared and she would not even tell Santa what she wanted from 10 feet away. I just thought Mikey would be more excited but he was just kind of like "WHATEVER" I saw Santa big deal. I guess I will have to just wait and see where this goes.

So proud....

2008-12-05T10:52:00.000-08:00

Last night Mikey was in the Holiday Stroll (Christmas Parade in our town) and I was so proud. It was one of those "that's my son moments". On top of that he won 2nd place for his fire prevention poster. He gets to go eat lunch with the fire fighters, how cool is that?!?! I am so proud of my little man, I love to see his face light up. He gets so excited and that smile shows you just how happy he is. Every single time I see that smile my heart melts, I just want to scoop him up and never let go. I hope he continues to do such a wonderful job. Ok my brag is over!

Thanks Anji.....

2008-12-03T11:49:00.000-08:00

Anji directed me to an awesome blog The Secret is in the Sauce, go over and check it out!

Thanks Anji!

My Grandma....

2008-12-01T14:41:00.000-08:00

I try really hard not to come on here and tell a whole lot about my family life. I don't mean my immediate family I mean my extended family. Reason I do that is because I think if I see it in writing it might confirm my family really is dysfunctional.

My Grandma has to be the strongest yet most stubborn woman I know. She speaks her mind even if she knows it is going to hurt you. She has a really bad mouth like she can drop the F bomb at church and think nothing of it. It all boils down to either you like her or you don't there is no in between with her. My Grandma had a hard upbringing and so did my mom and her brothers and sisters. All together my grandma has had a hard life.

Growing up we were close to my Grandma she was always there for us and never turned us away EVER. She might not have been the best mother to my mom but she was a wonderful Grandma. She has been a little ill lately and they are waiting to do an MRI of the heart, she has already refused any heart surgery, so even if it's fixable they won't be able to fix her upon her request. I have honestly always thought that my Grandma would out live us all, I have never gave her death a thought. Even when she had breast cancer I knew she would beat it, and she did.

I'm a little scared this time because I really love my Grandma, I love the good and the bad. Last night when I told her bye I held her a little tighter and bawled my eyes out like a little girl, she was comforting me and I should of been comforting her. Even if my Grandma has a hard kind of love I'll take it. She is the most fun person to be around, even if you get a little embarrassed sometimes.

I just wanted to tell about her and ask for prayers, I just want her MRI of the heart to come out clear.

A time to give Thanks.....

2008-11-25T13:51:00.001-08:00

Although we should do this all the time, the holidays seem to bring it out a little more. I have so many things to be thankful for my kids, my husband, my family and my friends and all of our health. I know right now people are down in the dumps with the whole economy thing and I understand, but we have to stop and think of the most important things. Things like our health and happiness, our family and our true friends. It's so hard to take our mind off the "worldly" things but it is possible. I challenge you to stop and just take in what you have NOW and be grateful because there are so many people out there who would love to have the things you have. I hope you all have a very safe and Happy Thanksgiving, GOD BLESS!!!

The crazy camping trip.....

2008-11-12T07:32:00.001-08:00

So this last weekend we decided to take Mikey and Bre camping for the weekend. We drove about an hour and a half to a place thinking it would be empty, only to find out they were full. Called some other places close by and they were full so we ended up driving 3 hours to a state park. Mikey was way too excited for us to just turn around and go home and we both figured he needed this. So we get to the state park set up and the kids and us are starving. We had already planned on having chili dogs but guess what we forgot the stove. Oh and even if we wanted to cook chili dogs we couldn't because I forgot the buns.It was just one thing after the other I mean seriously can't anything just be easy for us?!?!?! I had three cans of vegetable soup so we heated that up over a fire that took FOREVER to start. We ate and let the kids run free, after all that crap it was so worth it to just to see Mikey and Bre having fun. As I sat there and watched I thought, here we are stressing and they could care less, we should all care less sometimes! That night we watched the beautiful lit sky and were Lucky enough to catch some shooting stars. Our camping trip started out crazy but it ended GREAT!!! EXCEPT for one thing my car smells like mesquite and I have no idea what to do.
Will share pictures later.

He did it....

2008-11-05T06:23:00.000-08:00

We witnessed history last night and it was wonderful. I hope this country pulls together this is what will make us stronger. I am so excited to have Obama as our president and really feel change is coming. I am sadden that his grandmother was unable to share the moment with him,there is no doubt she was looking down with a smile! So here is to change and to a wonderful 4 years. Everyone remember prayer is key so please pray for our President and country.

I Voted....

2008-10-31T11:47:00.000-07:00

This is my first time voting so it was really special to me. I am so glad I have the right to vote. I think this year everyone is so passionate about this election. I hope everyone goes out and votes especially the women, lets vote for all the women who never had the chance to. I even took Bre with me, although she was more happy about getting my I VOTED sticker I hope she remembers it. I just want to encourage everyone to go out and vote, this is what gives us our voice!

We met the Cheetah Girls!

2008-10-21T20:02:00.000-07:00

We went to San Antonio this morning to be in the audience for a local news station, my cousin Steph was nice enough to invite us. We were going to see the Cheetah Girls and we were all so happy!!! As we were waiting in the waiting room to be called back to be seated in walks the Cheetah Girls!!! Oh our girls just about passed out they were so happy. The best part was the Cheetah girls actually came over and talk to our girls, it was just awesome. They were so sweet to the kids and they took pictures and signed autographs and were just so NICE! I have to say even us moms were pretty star struck. I am so thankful the girls got the opportunity and very grateful to the Cheetah Girls they really made our girls day. All three of them were very beautiful and even though they may not remember our girls out of the tens of thousands they meet but our girls will always remember this day! So thank you to the Cheetah Girls I will be forever grateful for what you did for our girls today.

Cheetah Girls!

Breyana and Kiely

Brit and Kiely

Lily, Kiely and Sabrina

Something so little means so much to her.....

2008-10-08T09:29:00.001-07:00

Now that Mikey is at school all day, when Mike is working it is just me and Bre. I feel like this is our time to bond, we all know bond means shop!!! For lunch we like to go to Quiznos and pick up a sub and broccoli cheese soup. We come home lay a towel out on my bed eat and watch divorce court. lol

This is our thing and I never knew it until she started to request it more and more. Something that little means so much to her, she tells me she likes to do that with me. Little does she know I like it even more, I love to spend time with her and talk to her. I love the company of my three year old daughter. So from now on I will make sure we make a trip to Quiznos as often as we can because that is "our" time and we both enjoy it.

Depressing....

2008-09-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

Some ladies from my mommy board are doing a little weight loss contest. I think this is a great way to motivate us mom's. After posting my now picture I really can't believe I let myself go so much. Yes, I have had two kids but I know that is just an excuse. I found a picture of me from 2002, it was taken in New Mexico over spring break. You can't even recognize me in the picture, it's so hard to believe I once looked like that. I don't want to be so out of shape anymore I wanna look good but most important I want to feel good about myself. So I am going to print this picture out and pin it on my mirror as motivation. I don't want to keep putting myself last and I don't want to look like this anymore. I'm done with the excuses and I'm done with feeling so insecure. I know this is something only I can change, so here I go wish me luck!

Here is my motivation picture:

And you are......

2008-09-26T08:31:00.000-07:00

WHO?!?! I see all these different places on my live traffic feed and I'd love to know who is reading my blog. Please feel free to leave me a comment and introduce yourself. Look forward to meeting you!

Another NEW blog

2008-09-25T15:53:00.000-07:00

So Mike has decided to take up blogging, it's not guaranteed he will keep up with it but he is going to try. Hope you all get a chance to check it out I know it is going to be great.ENJOY!

Mike's Blog

TAG!

2008-09-25T10:53:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO I got tagged by Jen .
Here are the rules:

Link the person who tagged you
Mention the rules on your blog
Tell about 6 quirks of yours
Tag 6 fellow bloggers of yours to do the same
Leave a comment to let them know

1. I always have to wear mascara.

2. I have to talk to my mom at least once a day.

3. I hate chipped finger nail polish.

4. I am obsessed with purses.

5. I hate to be late for anything.

6. I HATE to wash dishes.

Now I am tagging:

Willy at All Day Ray
Lauren at Just Call Me Mommy
Annalissaat Crazy Mom of 3
Amyat Never a Dull Mom.
Denaat The Life I know

Sorry I only have 5, Have Fun bloggers!

Always looking forward....

2008-09-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

I remember Mikey as a newborn and I remember cradling him in my arms, sometimes while he nursed or sometimes just to cuddle. I remember always looking forward to the next step for him. Once he reached the next step like eating solids I would then look forward to the next step. After doing this with every milestone Breyana came along and I did the same thing. As much as I don't want my kids to grow up I always look forward to the next step, the next milestone for them.

Last night was bittersweet for me and it really took me back. Mikey went to sleep in bed with his dad and I stayed in bed with Bre. She looked over at me and said "mommy can I sleep on you", I put my arm out so she could lay on it but that was not what she wanted. She sat up and threw her body on mine and put her arms around me. As a lay there holding her it reminded me of all those restless nights with her. As a baby I use to lay her on top of me and she would calm down and drift off to sleep. Last night she did the same thing, it only took her minutes and she was out. As a listed to her little body take each breath I thought to myself, when they were younger I always looked forward but it seems these days all I want to do is go backwards and start all over. I want to cradle my kids again, I want to hear that baby talk one more time. I want to see that expression on their little faces after they had just figured something out. I miss that, I miss their smell their little toothless smiles.

I know I can't to back only in memory so for now I will enjoy these milestones and not always look forward to the next. I know in about 5 years I am going to want to go back to now.

The bad mom award goes to.......

2008-09-17T08:54:00.000-07:00

ME! I feel so bad my poor son has been crossing his eye for a while now and I kept getting after him. He likes to cross both eyes to be funny but for a year now I had noticed he was just crossing one. It was usually when he was doing school work or playing with his toys up close. Since he has started Kinder all his work has been really messy and it that is not Mikey. Finally I used my brain and figured he might be far sided. Made him an appointment with a pediatric optometrist only to find out I was right. My little Mikey needed glasses he is far sided after all.

He was a little upset at first. he kept telling us everyone was going to think he looks like an idiot. We kept reassuring him that all would be fine and no one was going to call him an idiot. He wore them to school for the first time yesterday and everyone loved them, he was so happy. All of his school work looked nice and neat, he is now ready to give Kinder his best!

So I feel like such a bad mom for letting this go for so long, I think after a couple of toys he will forgive me. ;)

My little man in his new glasses!

Wedding Pictures.....

2008-09-14T13:42:00.000-07:00

My BIL Rene and my new SIL Naomi got married this weekend. It was very beautiful and everyone looked great! Mikey and Bre were lucky enough to stand up in it and they did very well. Here are TONS of pictures. (I think you can click on the picture to make it bigger)

Mikey and Bre

Bre,Daddy and Mikey

Bre & Aunt Naomi

They did an awesome job!

The Bride and Groom

Me and Mike

Daddy and Mikey

Mikey and Bre dancing

Mikey dancing with aunt Naomi

Bre and Brit

Mikey and Caden

Mikey and Mommy

Me and Kim

Mom and Dad

Bre and Grandma

Mikey and Bre with Grandpa and Grancie

PARTY!!!

2008-09-07T14:09:00.000-07:00

I celebrated my 25th birthday Saturday, I had such a great time. My actual birthday is (9/9). I think everyone had a really good time. The food was good and so was the DJ, my parents really went all out for me. Looking at some of the videos and pictures today I was a little embarrassed. What the Heck, you only turn 25 once!!!
My friend Ruby, Myself, and my SIL Linda My family! (Mike, Mom, Dad, Dan (brother) and Linda My cousin Steph Me with my cousins Kim, Amanda, Michelle and Erica (this pic came out crazy) Me, Mike, Mikey and Breyana AJ (nephew), Rene (BIL), Naomi (SIL) and Bryan & Ry (cousins) Jerry (BIL) & Deb (SIL) My Little Cuties There are tons of pictures but I just wanted to share a few!!!

I'm staying strong......

2008-09-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

Last week I decided enough was enough and Mikey and Bre had to go, to their own bed that is. We have been co-sleeping for 5 years and they are just too big already. So the first day was hard for them, I heard "MOMMY" every 3 hours. The second day it was a little better. Last night they did great!!! After a couple of sprays of the "Monster Spray" (Bath & Body Works aromatherapy Lavender vanilla spray) I told them I would stay in there for 5 minutes and they both fell asleep within that time. I only got called in there one time last night. It's getting easier on all of us. I wake up in a better mood because I am not pulling body parts out of me. It's been a great 5 years but it was time for them to make the move. They have a had NEW twin beds in their room forever, and they were only used for an occasional nap. They do sleep together and I will let them do that until they are ready to sleep apart. I am so proud of them, last night Mikey asked why they had to sleep in their own bed. He said it makes him sad that he can't sleep with us. I told him it was just a growing pain and he would feel different in a couple of weeks. Let's just hope I'm right or he will never let me forget it.

A new blog....

2008-09-01T11:55:00.000-07:00

So I got my uncle started on blogging and I'd love for everyone to check it out. He is one of the craziest people you will ever come in contact with. ( I mean this in a good way)

Here it is, check it out when you get a chance his name is RAY

RCA SUCKS!!!

2008-08-26T17:09:00.001-07:00

OMG I am beyond MAD today!!! My stupid RCA 2.5 year old TV screwed up today. The color converter went out and it will cost $400-$450 to be replaced. SERIOUSLY?!?!?! This was an expensive TV and it's not even that old. I am so mad and I will never buy another RCA, I will be sure to let everyone else know the quality of their projection HDTV's.

Dear Mikey

2008-08-25T06:53:00.000-07:00

Today was your first day of Kindergarten, you did so well this morning. You woke up in a great mood and you were so ready to start the day. While I was brushing your teeth I reminded you about using your manners,you told me not to worry you knew what you had to do. I can't help but worry I do it every time you are away from me. You jumped out of the car and walked to your class, you looked around and went right in. I was so happy that you were happy it made it easier on all of us. I know you are going to do well,I can't wait for you to get home and tell me all about your exciting day in kinder. I am so proud of you and today I realized just how big of a boy you really are. No matter how big you are you will always be my baby boy.

My Kids Rock!!

2008-08-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

Let me set the mood.... Breyana had been sick and she was camped out on the sofa in her brothers T-Rex shirt and sweats (upon her request). She was covered up in her princess comforter because she kept getting the chills. Mikey was jumping around acting like the little monkey he is, with his favorite Old Navy airplane pj pants and his shirt that Grancie got for him when she went out of town. Then Ellen comes on and they go crazy!! They don't know all the lyrics, in fact they have made up their own on some parts. Hey they are 5 and 3 and I think they did darn good. LOL

Last week of "Summer" vacation

2008-08-18T14:25:00.000-07:00

It's hard to believe another summer will soon come to an end. Although I am happy my little boy will be in Kinder I am also a little sad. I know he is going to do GREAT he is a very smart and happy little boy. I know Bre is really going to miss him but I think Mommy is going to miss him more. Yes, he has driven me insane this summer but he is still my baby boy. I can't help but look at him sometimes and want to cry. I miss his little ways he is growing up soooo fast. I wish I could keep him little forever but that would just be selfish. Mikey has so much to offer and I just know this kid is going to change the world. So we will wrap this summer up and get ready for next Monday. I'm sure I'll cry about 3 times from now until then.

Why is it easier???

2008-08-15T07:48:00.000-07:00

I have a couple of close friends that I talk to often and that I completely trust. The funny thing is I have more friends online than in IRL.

All of them I have met on my birth club board and Texas board and have just become really good friends with them. It's funny how easy it is to open up to these women that I have never met. I just wonder why it's so much easier to do so. Is it because it's easier to talk to someone who does not "know" you, or is it because you just have so much in common it just makes it easier. Whatever it is I am so glad God has given me a chance to meet all of them. I have trust some of them with secrets and they have done the same with me. I have text, called, and chatted with some of them. I have met a couple of them and their beautiful kids. It just amazes me that I can relate to all of them in one way or another. When one of us in going through something another has already been there and that helps to have someone give you advice or to just listen and understand.

Still hoping that one day we can all get together and have a nice cold one, but until then we will continue to be there for each other. So here is to all my Internet girls!!

I need some.....

2008-08-14T13:21:00.000-07:00

SLEEP!! OMG I am having so much trouble falling asleep. My mind just never turns off it's just going and going. I am thinking of things that I need to do and some of them are a year away. The only way I can get a good nights rest is if I take a sleep aid. I don't want to become dependant on them but I can easily see how it's possible. About 11:00 I am extremely tired but once I'm in bed and the lights are out I just can't fall asleep, I am wide awake and my mind is just going. So if anyone has any tips on falling asleep or clearing your mind please let me in on them I am desperate.

Growing up too fast....

2008-08-13T09:59:00.000-07:00

I look around me and all I see are these little girls trying to grow up so fast. I think to myself, if they only knew. I wish I could stop everyone of them and tell them what they would do in 5-7 years to get those teenage years back. I wish they would just stop and enjoy them. I understand exactly where they are coming from, I was once there and wanted so badly to be "GROWN" it was so overrated. I like my adult life and I love where I am right now in my life. I do wish that I would of taken my time growing up. I wish I would of enjoyed my teenage years more instead of looking for ways to look or feel 5 years older. So to all those teens out there, SLOW DOWN YOU HAVE ALL YOUR LIFE TO GROW UP, TAKE TIME OUT AND ENJOY THESE YEARS. MAKE MEMORIES AND FRIENDS, MAKE TIME FOR YOU AND GET TO KNOW YOURSELF. BELIEVE ME THESE YEARS GO BY FAST ENOUGH SO ENJOY THEM.

Domestic Violence...

2008-08-12T11:05:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I watched an old Lifetime movie called Cries Unheard it was a good movie. It got me thinking about the millions of women who are getting abused every single day. In this movie Donna Yaklich hired 2 brothers to kill her husband Dennis, who would beat her all the time. Now I'm just going by the movie if this is true or not, I have no idea but I imagine it must have some truth to it for Lifetime to base it a true story. She got 40 years but was released I believe in 2006. I do not agree with anyone murdering anyone else unless it is self defense. Although she was getting beat by this man I feel like she should of just left him or killed him herself.

I have never been in a abusive relationship so I can't understand it. I can't understand why it's so hard to get out of that relationship especially if you have children. No woman should ever be degraded or called out of her name by anyone especially by the person who is supposed to love her and cherish her. Domestic violence is serious and for many women it's fatal. So to any one out there who might be going through this and feel like there is no way out you are VERY wrong there are tons of people willing to help. The first step is letting someone know you need help. May God bless all those women and girls with the courage they need to just stand up and say ENOUGH.
Domestic Violence
1-800-799-SAFE

CPR

2008-08-11T09:55:00.000-07:00

So I took a CPR/First Aid class this Saturday. I know no big deal right?!?! WRONG, it is a big deal this is my first step to getting a job at the school. My goal is to get my 15 hours this year and the Lord willing next year be able to get my own Pre-K class. I really want this so bad and the great thing is,I can take Breyana with me until she starts school next year. I have not worked in 5 years but this is going to be very part time for now. So wish me luck and send your extra prayers my way!!

So back to the CPR class I thought it was a great class and now I want to preform CPR on everyone. LOL

I hope if I ever do need it I won't freak out and freeze. If any one is thinking about taking CPR I strongly recommend it I think it's something everyone should take.

ONE WORD....

2008-08-10T17:47:00.000-07:00

Got this from Kim's blog let's see if I can do this. You have to answer each sentence with one word.

1. Your childhood? Great
2. Your significant other? Cute
3. Your hair? Short
4. Your mother? Strong
5. Your father? Caring
6. Your favorite thing? Kids
7. Your dream last night? Crazy
8. Your favorite drink? Tea
9. Your dream/goal? School
10. The room you’re in? living
11. Your friends? Awesome
12. Your fear? Death
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Together
14. Where were you last night? Home
15. What you’re not? Skinny
16. Muffins? No
17. One of your wish list items? Clothes
18. Where you grew up? Texas
19. The last thing you did? Ate
20. What are you wishing? Happiness
21. Your TV? OK
22. Your pets? No
23. Your computer? old
24. Your life? Blessed
25. Your mood? Happy
26. Missing someone? Willy
27. You need ? Sleep
28. Something you’re not wearing? Shoes
29. Favorite store? Any
30. Your summer? HOT
31. Loves? Family
32. Your favorite word?Can
33. Last time you laughed? Today
34. Last time you cried? Church

Now you try!!

Friday!

2008-08-08T10:19:00.000-07:00

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, how can you not after looking at this pretty face.

The value of a dollar....

2008-08-06T10:45:00.000-07:00

Growing up my family was always about middle class, that's where most of Americans are. We never owned a big fancy house, or even a house. We lived in a nice mobile home that was on an acre or two of land. My mother always kept a very clean house while keeping a full time job and taking care of my brother and I. My father was a very hard working man who busted his butt to give us what we needed and wanted. He would work tons of overtime and sometimes even take up a second job. Sometimes it was to make ends meet and sometimes it was to just give us those clothes or items that we just had to have. I say my parents were hard working but actually they are still hard working people. My parents always tried their hardest to teach us the value of a dollar.

I never realized how hard it was to pay bills and still give your family what they need and want. Now that I am grown I wish I had tons of money to buy my parents everything they deserve. My mom that big house that all her grand kids can run around in. My dad every single tool you could ever ask for and then some.I know those things are not important to them but it's just something I wish I could do.

Looking back I feel like I was so selfish to not give a damn if my parents had the money or not for the things I wanted. I know they just wanted to give me the best because I feel the same about my kids. That private school that Mikey just HAS to go to, or that outfit that Breyana just has to have. We give to our kids unselfishly and put us on the back burner. Mike and I both know how it is to struggle and want and sometimes not get. I feel like because of this we have learned the value of a dollar. We are far from being rich we are just another middle class family trying to make it, and trying to teach our kids the value of a dollar.

Not as sweet as he looks.....

2008-08-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

I hate for my kids room to be a mess so every so often I go in there and clean it really good. This last time that I did it I told them and myself it would be the last time that room got that bad. So I have been staying on them to just pick up after they are finished. Well those of you who are mom's know that it's pointless to try to get through to a 5 and 3 year old. So last night at bed time I told them right when they wake up they are to clean that room. They have been in there all morning at it looks worst than before. So my little sweet boy has the nerve to come into the living room and tell me to turn off the View. When I asked Why, he said I need to clean up the living room and not be watching TV. He proceeded to say if they have to clean their room I need to clean in here. Everything on the floor in here belongs to them. WTH???? My son is trying to get brave with me. UGH he acts just like his Dad.

Appreciation....

2008-08-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

It seems like now days no one really shows any appreciation to anyone or anything anymore. Including my self, it's like we take everyone and everything for granted. Yesterday or day before Mike and his fellow officers were having breakfast,a man came to the table and let them know how much he appreciates them. He also let them know that their breakfast was paid for. He went above and beyond his duty of showing appreciation. So I challenge everyone to tell or do something for someone to show your appreciation!!

6 Years Today!!

2008-08-03T12:37:00.000-07:00

Today Mike I have been married for 6 years!! It's hard to believe it's already been that long it seems like just yesterday. This has been a great 6 years with struggles that have only made us stronger. I pray that God blesses us with many more years!!

I'll never kiss another mommy...

2008-04-21T10:08:00.000-07:00

This is what my 5 year old told me after school today. This was our conversation:

Mikey: Mom I like you
Me: Well I like you too
Mikey: I'll never kiss another mommy.
Me: Thanks that means a lot to me.

Gotta love this age!

House Work

2008-04-03T08:41:00.000-07:00

Am I the only stay at home mom with a messy house?!?! I hate cleaning as it is but I know it needs to be done. I can't find the energy to get it done. My kids throw all their crap every where and by the time I pick that up they have already started a mess at the other end of the house. I wish Mike could stay home for one day alone with the kids and see how crazy it is around here, maybe then he would understand.

I raise my glass to all you SAHM's with nice clean houses, any tips?!?!

Jonas Brothers

2008-03-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

So I know everyone has heard of these guys. My 5 year old Mikey is in love with them he just goes crazy when he hears their music. First of all Mikey loves to rock out and these guys really do. At first I thought oh great another boy band but they are great!!! Even I like the songs. I also like that they have no cuss words in any of their songs so it is suitable for my little man. So if you have not heard of the Jonas Brothers I suggest you look them up!!

I know it's been a while......

2008-03-24T11:46:00.000-07:00

But I promise I will start updating soon, like tomorrow soon!!!

But you are so young.....

2007-11-12T09:13:00.000-08:00

If I hear this again I am going to scream. I tied my tubes and all everyone keeps saying is that I am so young. Yes I am 24 but in my heart I know I am done having kids. I have my set and I like it this way. It was a decision between myself and Mike and we made the right one for US.

OK MY VENT IS OVER!!

I'm back and ready to BLOG!

2007-11-05T18:27:00.000-08:00

OMG what a week last week was for me. I had surgery on a hernia that was above the navel and also had my tubes tied. The recovery was pure HELL it was just so hard not be able to get up or even cough. As if all this was not enough the pain meds. made me break out in a rash that is still all over my face. Lucky for me I have a wonderful husband and family, they were so much help. The kids stayed with my parents for the day and my mom came and clean the house. My MIL and SMIL cooked for us and so did my wonderful sister in law. I think now Mike knows just how hard it is with 2 crazy kids. He got Mikey late to school the first 3 days. lol

I am so glad to be back I still can't lift anything but atleast I can sneeze and laugh without crying from the pain.

I'm becoming a man...

2007-10-17T10:49:00.000-07:00

This is what Mikey said cause he saw hair on his legs!! lol

Wordless Wednesday

2007-10-10T11:41:00.001-07:00

Can I brag a little?!?!?

2007-10-09T12:18:00.000-07:00

I just have to share how proud I am of my little boy. He is learning so much in school and has been just great. His attitude and everything has amazed me. I only hope when Bre starts school she will do as well as Mikey has. I am so loving this it's great to hear how excited he gets when he learns something new. Thnaks for letting me brag, I'm just a proud mommy!!

Won't be around

2007-09-23T13:45:00.000-07:00

We are in the process of moving so I won't be around for a while.
Take Care Everyone!!

My little cuties!

2007-09-20T13:24:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to share!

Look at my big boy!!

The Princess!

My poor baby girl is sick!

2007-09-07T19:54:00.000-07:00

About midnight I woke up to a hot little thigh on my arm. When I felt that, I knew I was in for a long night. I wake her up so I can give her some medicine trying hard not to wake up Mikey. I get her some medicine and a cool towel and the fever breaks about an hour later. I pray that this is the end of it but I know better. She has had fever off and on today and diarrhea she is just drained. I hate it because she looks so sad. I wish I could take it all away from her, I HATE for my kids to be sick!! So I guess this year I will spend my birthday taking care of my little princess. I know she desperately needs her mommy right now, and I'm the only one who will do. Please send prayers my little girls way she needs them right now!!

5 more days and..........

2007-09-04T07:19:00.000-07:00

I will be 24! I know that's not old but OMG I feel so old. It seems like just yesterday I was turning 18 and that was 6 years ago. Not sure what we are going to do that day. I think the day before Mike and I are going to go catch a movie and that day, we will probably go out to eat with the kids. It's weird when you are a kid and your parents ask what you want for your b-day you hand them your list. Yesterday my mom asked what I wanted for my b-day and I could not even think of one thing that I wanted. I can't wait to see what Mike is going to do he always does cute little surprises for me!!

4 Generations

2007-09-02T14:51:00.001-07:00

A letter to my son...

2007-08-28T08:21:00.000-07:00

My Dearest Mikey,
Yesterday was your first day of school, and your first time being away from mommy for so long. The night before I let you pick out your clothes and of course you picked out a green shirt. You looked so cute and I started to see just how big of a boy you really are. As we drove you to school Daddy and I reminded you about using your manners and being a good boy. You sat there and listened and you were probably tired of hearing it, but we just wanted to remind you. As we got off the car you had a big smile on your face you thought you were ready. When we got to hall you looked around at all the kids and just studied everyone. The teacher opened the door and you ran in to put your backpack on the hook and ran to the back to play. Daddy and I stayed in the hall and watched our little boy go off as if you had done this a hundred times. Soon you realized this was it we were leaving and put your little chubby hands over your eyes, this is what you do when you are trying to hold back tears. Those tears did not stay back long and neither did ours. I went in the class room to give you a kiss and let you know I'd be back. It took everything in me to stand up and walk away from you. I felt as if I was walking out on you not away from you. I prayed and prayed that you understood that we had to walk away, we were doing it for you not to hurt you. It hurt Daddy so much to see you there crying. Breyana asked for you all the way home, she was so bored without you. We counted down the hours, I had no idea it would hurt me so much. You were the first one out of the class room and you looked so handsome and big. You had your little Diago backpack on and were so happy to see us. We looked through your backpack and found all your pages you colored and they were so good. I can't believe my baby boy is getting so big, I am so proud of you son. I will stay brave for you and I will stay strong but please know it is killing me inside. I hate to see you hurt and I hate to see you cry. I know your tears will only last a while and soon you will do this with ease.

Let's talk In Laws

2007-08-23T09:57:00.001-07:00

I have to say I have heard some scary in law stories, and I feel sorry for people with bad in laws.

Before I even married Mike his family was already treating me like a family member. His mom and dad were so nice to me. His brothers and sister in laws and all his nephews were just so sweet to me. When I married Mike I gained a wonderful family that I really and truly love. I have become so close to my sister in law Debbie and can talk to her about anything, she is just awesome. I also gained wonderful nephews they are all good boys some of them turning into good men already.

Family is important to me I love to be around family and have little gatherings. I am so thankful for such wonderful in laws, I know I have been blessed!

My little girl

2007-08-21T07:08:00.000-07:00

She is so much like me we sometimes find it hard to reach agreement. She has my attitude which is not all bad but can be difficult at times. I look at her and see an innocent little girl who will one day grow up and have to face life and reality. I know your life is what you make it but I wish I could guarantee her all will always be okay. I wish I could protect her from every heartbreak and every embarrassment but I know this will only build her character. I know if she stays as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside she will have it made.This world can sometimes be cruel to women but hopefully by the time she is older all will be equal. Everyone falls down what matters is how you get back up. I hope she always knows a woman can do anything a man can do, maybe even better.I will be sure to teach her it's ok to make mistakes as long as she learns from them. It's hard to believe one day my little girl will be grown, although she might not want me around all the time, I hope she always remembers the things I instilled in her when she was just a little girl.

A bond between a Daddy and his Son

2007-08-16T13:40:00.000-07:00

It is absolutely priceless!

OMG

2007-08-16T08:25:00.000-07:00

My baby is going to start Pre-K in just about a week. What am I going to do, how am I going to handle it?!?!?! He is very friendly and he loves to love on people. He shows affection to everyone he knows, he is just a loving person. That kind of scares me I don't want him running around hugging on everyone. lol

Another thing that bothers me is that he gets his feelings hurt very easy. I know it's just one of life's lessons but I don't want anyone to hurt my little boy's feelings. So many mixed emotions on this subject!! This is hard I have been with him everyday all day since the day he was born. He is very smart and outgoing, he is going into Pre-K because I know he needs more interaction with kids his age.

I'm going to miss my baby boy but I know he'll do just fine!

You can do it mom!

2007-08-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

We encourage our kids and never let them give up. The word CAN'T is not allowed in our house. I want them to understand practice makes perfect and they can do anything they want to do. Yesterday I found out my kids really do listen to what I say.

I have been working out trying to lose some weight and it's been a little hard on me. As I was working out my abs I was having a hard time and started complaining. Mikey runs up to me and says "Mom don't give up you are doing good". That is all it took for me to get right back into it. What a great little boy I have!

One day at a time......

2007-08-13T08:39:00.000-07:00

I have noticed that life sometimes deals us cards we just want to throw back. Sometimes it's just that easy and other times it's just to hard. How do we deal with life's expectancies?!?! We deal with it one day at a time. I have faith in the Lord and have had my share of difficult situations. I have learned there is always light at the end of the tunnel you have to just keep walking to reach it. So to everyone out there who is having a hard time just know if there's a will there's a way!!

Back from the beach!

2007-08-12T11:05:00.001-07:00

We had a wonderful time it was just great. The weather was perfect and the kids had a wonderful time. We spent most of our time in the pool because the kids loved it so much. Here are some of the pictures:

It's almost beach time!!

2007-08-05T05:57:00.000-07:00

Wednesday we are leaving to Corpus to enjoy the beach with the kids. My FIL and SMIL was nice enough to book us a suite for a couple of days for our anniversary. Mikey and Breyana are so ready to go as are we. This is a much needed trip and it will be good for Mikey to go before school starts for him.

I just love the beach I love to see the kids play in the sand and run around with big smiles on their faces.We never traveled when we were little except for maybe once or twice so I love to do things like this with my kids. I want them to grow up and so things like this with their kids.

So my point of this post was just to let out some excitement!!!

8 things you don't know about me.

2007-08-03T09:27:00.000-07:00

I got tagged by Jen so I'm a little late doing this but here it goes.

1. I feel guilty if I do things for myself.
2. I am Hispanic but can't talk Spanish that great.
3. When I was younger I wanted to be a choreographer.
4. I have shit loads of stretch marks and I hate to look at myself in the mirror.
5. I have more friends online than in real life.
6. I'm a bad housekeeper.
7. I am very unorganized.
8. I love to chew gum.

Happy Anniversary to US!

2007-08-03T09:12:00.000-07:00

Today Mike and I have been married for 5 years! It's been a wonderful and challenging 5 years. We have overcome obstacles and are raising two beautiful, healthy and wonderful children. Mike is my best friend and my rock. I know I can always count on him for anything. We have both come a very long way together. I hope one day Breyana finds a man just like her daddy that will do anything for her with a smile. So Happy Anniversary to Me and Mike and may God Bless us with many, many, many more years!!

Our wedding day!

Love this song!

2007-07-26T09:03:00.001-07:00

I hope you enjoy it also!

You can't push the girl

2007-07-18T05:20:00.000-07:00

So Bre decided 2 days ago she wants to wear her panties now. Out of the blue my child went pee and poo in the toilet. It is so Bre you can't push that girl to do a darn thing she does everything on her own time. I had already decided I would not push her to go potty I would let her tell me when the time was right. I am so very proud of her she is becoming such a big girl *sigh* and yes it breaks my heart. So here is to another accomplishment my sweet baby girl has made!

Rain Rain Go Away!

2007-07-17T12:03:00.000-07:00

We have had so much rain and I know rain is a good thing but OMG!! First it makes me feel so lazy I just want to sit on the couch and watch Lifetime all day. I hate driving in the rain it makes me feel like a 16 year old driver just learning how to drive. I just want this rain to go away for a little while.

As I hold my little Boy's hand.....

2007-07-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

I can't help but feel at ease. For that moment it feels like the world is still and at peace. It's getting less and less before he needed me to hold his hand everynight. As I lay there I can't help but think back when he was a baby so small and beautiful. My mind wonders to his first chrismas, we lived in a condo and were low on money but we had eachother. I remember him going to the tree and touching the blue glass ornaments. He would look back at me and smile that big smile with those beautiful brown eyes. His hair so dark and straight it just lay flat on his little head. Eventually he'd get it off and bring it to me as if it jut fell on it's own. After playing with the balls he would go under the tree and take every bow off of every gift, I think he was giving it that special touch.

So many memories and so many more to be made. My little boy is getting so big and I can't handle the fact that one day he will not need to hold my hand at all, but I know I'll always have the need to hold his.

Had to Share!

2007-06-22T13:48:00.000-07:00

I just had to share this picture because we NEVER take pictures together!

Friday

2007-06-22T13:41:00.001-07:00

I am glad to end this week because it has been one hell of a week. My kids have been wild this week and I am ready for the daddy to be off and take over. I need a nice hot bath to end this week and put it behind me.

Hope next week will be better, if not I'll be looking forward to another friday!

I have been blessed

2007-06-16T18:32:00.000-07:00

I hear of all these God awful things that some of these parents are doing to their own children, I don't understand WHY?!?!?!? How could a mother or father hurt their own child their flesh and blood. Our kids are a blessing to us and they are only ours on borrow, enjoy the time with you kids as tomorrow is never guaranteed. Let them laugh, let them be silly, let them live. Hold them, kiss them and cherish them. I have been so blessed with two healthy children and I thank God everyday for them.

He's finally going to day's!!

2007-06-04T00:02:00.000-07:00

Since the day we met Mike has been working midnights or evenings. Once we started our family I really hated the fact that we had to stay home alone at night. It was not really because I was scared (I have a gun, and I'm not scared to use it) but I just wanted him home at night.

I guess the lord knew how bad I wanted this because starting Friday he will be on day's! Thank God just in time for Mikey to start school. As you can tell I am very happy I have been waiting for this for 5 years.

Sad day in our community

2007-06-02T03:37:00.000-07:00

I'm so sad to say Texas has lost yet another Game Warden and this one is from our home town.
http://www.seguingazette.com/story.lasso?ewcd=3c4768bd4a1a53f2

His family talks so highly of him it sounds like he was a wonderful man. may God bless his family and help them through there time of need!

Underneath the mommy and wife.....

2007-05-26T22:45:00.001-07:00

I am a Woman, yes that's right an actual person who has likes and dislikes. I have lost myself in my life and I no longer try to search for ME! Who am I??

For just a bit as I write this I am not Mommy I am Jessica!
I am a good listener who loves to be around loved ones. I love to dance and sing in the shower. I love to shop and take long hot baths. I like to watch "girl" movies and Lifetime. I like to get my hair done and although I have to choose between that and my nails, I still feel just as special when my hair is newly colored, even if I get no comments on it. I love to read murder mysteries and scrapbook. I like t0 spend time with me and enjoy my own company. Just one day I want to be me and do things I like.

Don't get me wrong I love my family so much but somewhere in my chaotic life I lost me!

WooHoo!!!

2007-05-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

I am so happy for myself! I make custom boutique childrens and adults bracelets. They are all sterling silver with swarovski crystals and charms and stuff like that. I have been selling them at a boutique in my town for a couple of months. I've sold some, but it kinda sucks cause the town we live in is not use to boutique items so they don't want to pay the price for them.

Well this week I got 7 orders for my bracelets I got 3 mothers bracelets and some other little bracelets. I am just so happy because I enjoy making them and I also enjoy making money!! lol
I just wanted to share my happiness I am so glad business is picking up! WOOHOO!!

STOP IT BRE!

2007-05-15T20:43:00.000-07:00

I really find myself saying this WAY 2 much!! This girl is insane and a little crazy, she is so mean to Ki. She is forever hitting him when she does not get her way, she really does hurt him. I am so fed up with it already I feel so sorry for Mikey. She gets pissed and throws things at his head or bites him or just slaps the crap out of him. She even gets mad at me and hits me, what is wrong with my child?!?! Mikey neve acted like this at her age. Tell me it gets better, please tell me!!

We did it!!

2007-05-15T01:32:00.000-07:00

Saturday was awesome we actually spent time together!! We left the kids at my parents house and went to San Antonio and had a great time. First we went to eat at Outback and had a chance to just talk. That itself was great because we are always in a hurry trying to get the kids in and out without a tantrum in between. After that we went to the mall and did some shopping and if that was not enough we went to the Forum and did more shopping. It was so much fun to just spend time with Mike. We held hands and it just felt so good to be able to do that again. Something so small like that I missed so much.

The kids had a great time with my mom and dad and I know it was just as fun for them.

I can't wait until we do this again it was nice!

I want me & him time

2007-05-07T23:12:00.000-07:00

WARNING*****I AM FIXING TO SOUND LIKE A BIG BABY!!!

I really want to spend time with my husband just the two of us. I know we can't leave the kids for a night because they just won't stand for that. They are not use to spending the night anywhere they never have. I don't even want to spend the night anywhere I just want us to spend a day together. I stay home all day and just want some interaction outside my 4 and 2 year old.

Saturday we are suppose to go to San Antonio just the two of us but I know something is going to come up. I just miss our time together, I miss my husband I know him as daddy now not Mike.

Ok I am all done complaining!!

New baby in the family

2007-05-05T20:40:00.000-07:00

I am so happy for my aunt and her girlfriend, yes she is a lesbian. They just adopted a baby boy and he is a cutie!! I am so proud of them they are doing so well with him.

His birthh mom could not afford him and she just has other problems that I'd rather not talk about. Let's just say he is going to get a great life now.

Mikey and Breyana

2007-05-04T19:39:00.000-07:00

Mikey is my soft soul little man. He is so sensitive and has a big heart. He cares for others and shows love to others. He can make anyone laugh, he is a big ham. He still gets scared of little things but it's just him. He loves to make friends and loves to be a friend. Mikey is going to get hurt a lot in life because people are going to run over him. BUT once you piss him off that's it he can take a lot before he hits his boiling point. (just like his daddy) He is just so kind to others and he genuinely cares for everyone. My little boy is going to make some lady very lucky because he is a prince in disguise! My little man!

Breyana is my wild child!! She is so crazy, she will love you when she wants to and will push you away when she has had enough. She is very protective of her brother and wants to be his shadow. She looks for his approval in all she does. She is wild at home but very shy around others. She can give you looks that can kill and it does not take much to piss her off. She loves to sing and dance around. She loves to shop! (she gets that from her mom) Breyana will be Mikey's rock as they get older she is just so much stronger. I don't worry about her much I know she won't take shit from anyone.

My kids are so different but are very alike in ways. I hope they always stay close because Mikey is going to always have to remind Bre why you have to care about others and Bre is going to have to remind Mikey that you can't always do that!

If I were to die tomorrow......

2007-05-04T19:32:00.000-07:00

Who would hold Mikey's hand at bedtime.
Who would know how to calm his and Bre's fears.
Who would love them so much, they would lay their life down for them.
Who would tell them about me.
Who would tell them how much I love them.
Who would my mom talk to after she had a hard day.
Who would my dad call to get the score on the game.
Who would Mike love.
Who would help Mike with the kids.

Every time I fell unappreciated I will look back at this and know just how much unfinished business I have here. To the world you might be one person but to one person you might be the world!

They do love each other

2007-04-19T01:43:00.000-07:00

Last night Mikey and Bre were in their room playing and they were just laughing away. Mikey reached over and told Bre "I Love You" and she smiled and said "I love you too Ki". It was so sweet that it was a real "I love you" not a forced one.

They might fight with each other and they might yell and make each other cry, but all in all they really do love one another!!

It's a Love that will never die you just can't explain the love of siblings. they share parents, memories and so much more. Today I really felt like I am doing a good job with Mikey and Bre I know I'm showing them the love they need to be shown. Because of that they show each other and other people in their life love.

I love you, 3 simple words that go beyond a simple meaning!

Sanjaya Is Gone

2007-04-18T21:19:00.000-07:00

I know he had crap loads of fans, I for one was not one of them. At the beginning I was but after maybe his 2nd or 3rd performance he lost me. However it did break my heart to see him go. I really felt so sorry for him because he was crying, I know it hurts them all to have to leave but he is still so young. I think Sanjaya can do broadway or something, that's just my opinion on him. So good luck to Sanjaya in the future.

ONE GOOD THING IS THAT LADY WHO WAS STARVING HERSELF CAN EAT NOW!! LOL

God Bless Virgina Tech

2007-04-17T20:30:00.000-07:00

We will never know what was going through the mind of the killer. We will never know what was going through the mind of the victims. It's heart breaking that a person could be so cold hearted, and so many questions are left unanswered for both sides.

It's happening more and more and it scares the crap out of me that my kids have not even started school and I see there is no hope in these kind of situations. I know we should look to the positive side but how do you teach your children about things like this. My 4 year has been watching the news with me and has asked multiple times, why the man killed people? He even asked if God was mad at him now. What do you tell a 4 year old about this sometimes cruel world we live in?!?!

My prayers and thoughts go out to all the families and students who lost friends, sons, daughters, sisters and brothers.

They also go out to all VT students who got a little piece of them taken away, a piece of them that will forever be gone. May God Bless them all!!!

May God Bless Us All!!

Pictures

2007-04-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to share these pictures of my kiddos and little nephews!

So she's better

2007-04-17T03:29:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!! She is all better she had such a tough weekend my poor little baby girl. Today she was all better now it's back to her and Mikey fighting and yelling. YAY FOR ME!! LOL

She was so sick and every time she would vomit not a single tear or cry came out of her she is so like her daddy. She is a tough girl and can handle so much but this virus really knocked her on her ass. Her daddy was already getting upset because she did not want to be with him she just wanted me. I think it just hurt is feelings.

So now I have to go catch up on laundry and all the other house work. I HATE HOUSE WORK!!

My baby is sick :(

2007-04-11T21:20:00.000-07:00

My poor baby Bre is sick today. I think she has a little bug or something, I feel so sorry for her.

I hate it when my kids are sick it just drives me crazy cause you are just helpless. You can't really give meds for a virus you have to just let it play out and that just SUCKS!!
I'm sure by tomorrow Mikey will have it and there is no way to prevent that.

Go figure the day she gets sick I am out of Lysol!! She also cosleeps so I am sure I'll have to change the bedding at least once tonight. It's going to be a long night I just know it is.

It's been a while

2007-04-10T03:20:00.000-07:00

I am sad to admit I forgot about my blog! I have been so busy with my kids, it's just been crazy. Not like anyone reads it but just in case!!

So not much has been going on, the kids are getting so big. Mikey is starting Pre-K in August so we are trying to get him ready for that. I think I'm the one that better get ready, I know I'm going to cry. He is my baby boy! Bre is going to miss him so much she is going to be bored here without him. He is becoming such a big boy. Today he told me a joke it goes like this:
Ki: Knock Knock
Me: Who's there?
Ki:Mommy
Me: Mommy who?
Ki:Mommy butt face

So I know it's lame but he's 4 and thought that was the most funniest thing int he world. I enjoyed watching him laugh so hard. He has also learned how to write his name he just amazes me!!

My Bre Bre is getting big and smart. She is just so beautiful and a little diva but more of a drama queen. She has a very short temper now so we are trying to work with that. She is still all about her daddy and he just eats that up. She is learning her ABC's right now and is doing really well with that.

My bracelets are doing ok I am enjoying making them and have just started mothers bracelets so that's fun!!

All in all things are pretty darn good right now!

Being a mommy

2006-12-18T14:25:00.000-08:00

I have to say being a mommy is a very hard job, and it just brings all kind of emotions out of you. For example today my kids were dancing to song on Disney channel and I started crying. Why?? It just was so sweet and innocent they were having so much fun, it's just so awesome. Yesterday I was a little bit upset because Mikey was peeing on himself, I was not even mad just upset with the fact that he knows better.
Yes sometimes my kids work my nerves but it's just another emotion to add to the list. Being a mommy has to be the best thing int he world and it's a job you can never lose. And I call it a job because that is what it is. It takes practice and training (by your kids) to perfect it. Being a mommy is just so good I wonder if it can get any better!!

"Crocadoddle"

2006-12-13T12:55:00.000-08:00

Every night before bed we always read a book and last night we were reading a book about colors. This book has the colors and different items that are that color. Well we get to green and they have a picture of a crocodile, I ask Mikey what it is and he says a crocadoddle. It was so cute and I thought to myself I want to remember that forever. Even after we laughed he looked at us like we were crazy! LOL

Gotta love a 3 year olds mind!!

It's beginning to look a lot like......

2006-11-29T13:07:00.000-08:00

Christmas!!! I'm so excited we are so ready for Christmas. Mikey and Breyana are big enough to understand and they are going to be so excited. We got Bre her kitchen and Mikey his train and the digital camera that he just had to have.
I can't believe this will be mine and Mikes 6th Christmas together, how time just goes by.
Mikey is also so ready to see Santa so I hope we can take him soon and I hope Bre is not scared of him.

Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks

2006-11-20T21:03:00.000-08:00

I am thankful for so much in my life. I feel very blessed and I just thank God everyday for the two most important blessings and that is my Kids. I feel like I have the perfect family, I have a wonderful husband and two healthy and beautiful kids.
We might not have crap loads of money but we do have lot's of love!

Christmas is so close

2006-11-02T20:22:00.000-08:00

I can taste it!! I'm so not ready for Christmas, every year it just creeps up on us. We always say we are going to start shopping early and we never do. Mikey wants everything over $60.00 and I really want to get Bre the kitchen. I hope Santa delivers a little Money for us! LOL